CREED!

CREED!!

The most awesomely awesome concert I have ever been to! Ah, super cool.. Jesse and my mom and I went last night and had a blast. Lopro (sp?) opened for them then Staind came out and played for aboutt... an hour I guess then they set up the stage for 20 minutes then out came CREED! Woohoo! They started with Bullets, and continued to jam for a while. Then they left the stage and Jesse said, "Noone's leaving until you guys play at least 5 more songs." ^^ Everyone was cheering and "Wooo"ing and finally they came back ^^ The last three songs they played rocked ^^ They ended with Higher (which was perfect) and almost everyone in the Cajun Dome was standing.

Ahh, so great. Jesse got me a poster and a keychain :] We had a great time, it was his first concert and my second and I'm glad we got to share it.

Why?

This is the question that I often pose to God. I never get a direct answer. No voices in my head, no burning bushes, I am no Moses. But I still ask.. Why God, Why? And How? And Where, where are you when people need you the most. (He never leaves, we just lose sight for a little while.)

Why do these things happen
How could you allow them to
Where did you go

Three questions that I cannot answer. But Lord, I try. I try, I try. I converse with others to see if they have answers, and sometimes they do, and I believe them.. Then something happens again and these Questions resurface.

Ever feel like you just need to let out a shout to the heavens? I wish I could, but unfortunately I would wake people up just now. But it is so frustrating.. not having the answers, having these things happen, again and again and again... Damn it..

And it was only earlier today when I thought "Fuck Trigonometry".. seems naive.
Writing helps though.. thank goodness.

I've heard that people who have been sad or depressed for a while tend to keep becoming sad and depressed. We fall back into what is comfortable, what we know, what we can handle. When we are happy we don't know what to do.. I've been thinking about that for a week or so now, when a girl in one of my classes came in crying two days in a row. I wanted to feel sad for her, then I felt myself Wanting to feel sad just for the sake of it. Because it is comfortable, I have been there, I know that place. That thought scared me.. "No" "I am not going back there" That place is not fun.. If there isn't anyone around you could get lost..
That's why talking, writing, drawing, whatever, anything that is a release is so important. I wrote when I was in that place, and no it wasn't all happy-go-lucky kind of stuff, but it helped.
Talking is the best thing for me though. Its weird I feel more at ease to talk to someone I know, but not on a real personal level. Like I don't talk to my parents about personal stuff much at all, some people can do that but not me.. Talking to someone, anyone is the biggest release for me.

I don't want to go there again.. but it feels like I'm being pulled you know? We're watching Hotel Rwanda in Af. Am. Studies.. which is sad. I needed (and got :] ) a hug after 5th period. Then I learn that a good friend of mine's parents are getting a divorce.. Then one of my best friends has a breakdown (for lack of a better word) and I don't even know about it. Ah, I feel like I need to cry, but I don't want to.. Why do these things happen? Dammit why?

I need to go ride my bike.. but unfortunately its the middle of the night lol :]
I'll ride it tomorrow, in the sunshine.


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heheh,

I like the Liam Neeson one ^^


(and would be thrilled if this was true!)

This is now the background of my computer ^^

The Myth of Tau

Now Tau was the spirit of the trees. She loved the way the wind swept across her green leafy branches. But what Tau loved even more than that was looking at her green leafy branches. She was known to inhabit a cypress tree for three years, staring at her reflection in the pond that it sat in.
Gaea, mother Earth, was not too pleased that Tau was so vain about her leaves. Gaea decided to teach Tau a lesson. So Gaea went over to Tau's favorite cypress tree and sure enough there was Tau, peering into the depths of her own reflection.
"Tau!" Gaea called, "Don't you think you could be doing something more efficient with your time?"
Tau didn't answer. In fact she hadn't even noticed that Gaea was there. Gaea raised her rosy fingers of dawn and sent a cold wind towards Tau. Little by little Tau's leaves changed from dark green to red, orange and yellow. At first Tau was shocked to see her beautiful leaves changing colors. Then, after a little getting used to, Tau was elated.
"Thank you Gaea!" she exclaimed. "These colors are even better than my old one!"
"This was not supposed to happen." Gaea thought. So the exasperated Gaea sent an even colder wind at Tau.
This time Tau's leaves did not change color. This time they fell off all together. Tau yelled in fright. "What have you done? I am hideous!" she cried.
"Now you will have to live with your ugliness each year Tau, to remind you not to be vain." explained Gaea. Gaea wasn't heartless though, she let the trees that grew high up in the mountains retain their green color year round. So in the winter Tau would visit the trees in the mountains, but she could not see her reflection in any river, pond nor lake, because thy were all frozen over. She still visits her favorite cypress tree and sits, looking at her reflection, but not for too long.



Written for Mythology class, I'm pretty good at coming up with these if I do say so myself ^^