"rock on" to the country

spent today at my grandma's house in grand prairie (which is still in the state ^^) [bout to fall asleep here, so i'll make it quick] got 11 hours of sleep last night^^ that was nice. just relaxed and had fun all day today

it was an overall awesome day.

im feeling much better than last week
thank goodness lol

night

just got back..

man, that was emotional.
crazy-ness

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insane... thats just not right.. they aren't right in the head to do that..
its the drugs..... excellent life lesson right there.. don't do drugs, pick you're friends wisely
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dad's gonna be a pallbearer, so is scott i think. they don't want ethan to do it.. and im glad, he's too young.. i don't think he wants to either. don't blame him. that'd be horrible, to carry you're dad's body to the grave.....
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god help paxton..

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bout to go to the funeral home, and spend some time with my grandparents for the first time since james died.. *sigh*

i feel light headed right now.. and my legs feel like air
aw man, keller gave homework too...

tonights gonna be fun.

its 10:20 but it feels like 2

indeed. its been a looong week. a definite roller coaster. im still figuring things out.. now i realize who leonard was talking about on the intercom... it was mr. reeves.. and i just sat there wondering who he is..was..

is

its sad..
i know he cared about me, i like him.. he was a nice man, very caring
he wanted to know about and if i was writing

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james died yesterday
i don't know the circumstances, but i do know some things..

im sad about it, but also glad that aunt peggy got out of that relationship..

just thinking about my cousins in a situation like that is.. horrible. i know one fell into it.. or walked idk

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and then the wreck..

first and probably not, but hopefully the last
nothing serious, nobody was hurt thank god
ms. tammy was.. freaking out
im just glad that we're all ok



what a week

and that is just the bad
there are many many Many more wonderful, hilarious moments in that week
this week,
the sleepover
beaus baseball practice
just so many good seconds.minutes. hours even

this morning in fact
krispy creme and a cup of coffee on the pier
it was so beautiful

its moments like these that i want to stay in,
but i can't
because life goes on

there can't always be light
and there's not always going to be dark

it may last for a while, but its not lasting forever
i just need to remember that sometimes



and to add the top and the bottom ^^